menujupuncak.

17 days to go and yes, I'm not all prepared. But, I will get myself 100% ready within these two weeks.I hope I can make it. I just happened to wake up early this morning so just thinking to do some last-words-before-SPM-post.

To all friends, I'm sorry if I ever did anything wrong to you especially my words. I know I hurt you people sometimes without realising it. Tambah-tambah time my mood swing. I'm sorry head to toe, you know sometimes you can't hear yourself say anything but you said it (?) Anyways, doesn't matter what I did that hurt you, I'm sorry. I'm sorry if I ever call you with some weird and not so good names. Sometimes melawak terlebih, aku kan over. So, ampunlah. To school pals, thanks for all the guidance and support. I know I can't make it through those hard times without you girls. And, I'm sorry for not being a good one in return. Halalkan makan minum and everything else. To others, sorry for my wrongdoings. Sorry to annoy you too much. Forgive me.

This is it. I'm leaving for the war. Pray for me (:

Abah, Mama <3

Hari ni aku kusut gila babi sampai la petang tadi, lagi dok jadi kusut macam mak hilang anak. Lol. So, dengan penuh rasa kusut dan serabut, I went down with my frizzy hair and cari mama. "Ma, kakak rasa sangat serabut" and mama said okay. Mothers always understand their kids. I know and I'm glad that I have such a wonderful mom. Then, mama told abah "your daughter just (insert words). Jom bawak dia pi somewhere" seriously (?) I was shocked. My mom understands me sampai macam ni (': So, I went up to get myself ready then headed to Queensbay, the nearest kancah maksiat. Lol. In the car, mama and abah were giving me some good words. "He wants you to focus on your SPM first" , "I know you will be fine, kakak kan anak abah" etc. Reached QB and first place to go, Baskin Robbins. I need ice-cream when I'm too stressed out. After that, we went to After Hours. Abah needs a new watch. After that, we went to Guardian. Oh oh, on the way to Guardian, there was an Air Asia booth depan Famous Amos. I saw this one guy, I think he's from Citi Bank cause he was wearing a Citi Bank shirt. He's HOT! And he wore Versace jeans, must have lots of money too. Yumm yumm! Lol. Enough with the craps. Went to Guardian, bought my toiletries and Cadbury Bournville. Really need one at the moment. I wasted a lot of money today. Shopping is good, especially when you're too stressed out. Really. I wanted to go to Forever 21 then depan Esprit ada tunjuk tunjuk car, apa lagi abah punya favourite lah ni. Abah was asking the salesman about the car that I never thought abah likes. It was

SUZUKI SWIFT!

I was like, "Ma, since when abah suka kereta macam ni?" and mama said, "taktau lah abah ni". Then, jeng jeng jeng!

Kakak, nak try get in?
Huh? Okay

In the car..

You like it?
I love it!
You want this?

Woi! I'm dreaming ka (?) Wrong question lah abah, you should ask "nak colour apa?" Lol. So, I just smiled as a respond. Abah faham la if anak dara dia ni dok sengih-sengih macam kerang busuk. Haha. After wasting some money at Forever 21, went to Coffee Bean. Dapat caffiene best ni. I was in the line, there was a chinese lady in front of me. OMG, dia punya la banyak tanya and I noticed that the kakak pun macam dah annoyed gila babi. Haha. After getting myself a regular Mocha Ice blended with cream, turned and woof! Saw another hotstuff. Haha. Then went back home. And in the car, mama and abah were still giving me their good words. "kakak, jangan study sampai tak tidoq, otak kita kena rest jugak", "don't worry about SPM too much, your health is more important", "esok tak payah pi school, rest at home. You're under a lot of pressure" ayat ni paling heaven. Lol. I was touched by mama and abah (': Thanks mama, thanks abah. I know you two are always there for me through the hard times. You always have my back. And thanks Allah for giving me all the strength to face what I'm facing now. And, thanks to dearest friends and Dr. Fikree. I need to study now, need to focus on my SPM. Dia cakap focus SPM dulu then we'll talk bout it. Lol. I end this with a warm smile (:

p/s: I still love you (':

No, I'm not ready.

I woke up early today and I mean really really early. Who am I kidding? I didn't even sleep last night, sheesh! As usual, did a little bit of studying, wandered around the house, on and off the TV, ate this and that (I'm always hungry, mind that!), texted some friends and here comes the drama. It was 3.34 a.m. when I received a call from a friend.

A: Awak masih berjaga?
S: Ye, kenapa?
A: Baru lepas study, otak penuh.
S: Okay, faham sangat. Apa pulak this time?
A: Sedih la nak leave school
S: I know, we have like what- less than 4 weeks to feel the atmosphere being in school kan? The crowd at the canteen during recess. It's annoying but that's love.
A: Itu lah. Waking up and not to find all those familiar faces again, macam tak berapa nak best.
S: Bangun pagi tak tengok lelaki badan kental-kental? Awak bagi saya rasa awak gay
A: Haha. It's not like that la budak. Awak tak duduk asrama mana awak tau
S: Ye ye

Believe it or not, our converstion ended with the both of us crying. Well, not practically crying but ada lah jugak tears, sikit. Haha. So, this is it. I'm finally leaving school. This may sound weird but I have to admit it. I know I'm gonna miss school a lot! And I know those hostelites would feel even sad (?) I will miss all the teachers though I dislike most of them. But they were the ones who make our school life to be fun. Just imagine a school with only good teachers and I mean good--good. You won't have anyone to cari pasal right? I will miss the canteen food, ayam goreng Pak Ali is the best ayam goreng in the world! And and, SGGS lekor is the best lekor you can find on earth! Shit, gonna miss them a lot. The food, I mean. And what I'm gonna miss the most is the time spent with the girls. Everything started in school. We planned this and that, we prank-called our boyfriends. I remember prank calling Abidin once. It was fun and hilarious. We found out about almost everything first in school. I'm not ready to leave all of that behind. How fast time flies. I hope I won't skip school dah after this and I doubt that. Lol. But first, I have to get myself ready for the big exam so that I can face anything that will happen after that. Pray for me

SOS

CEPAT LA BALIK! ):

I ate a lot of satay just now and now, I'm drunk. Sya knows why ;p

"Awesome!"

Yeah, I didn't go to school today for some good solid reasons. Yes, reasons! I woke up at 6 today and did some Sejarah followed by Physics. I need to push myself from now on. I wanted to do some Chemistry but otak macam penuh so I need to rest sekejap. As we all know the Ministry of Education has somewhat of 'upgrade' the grades for the SPM examination. Now, you don't have to aim for A1 but instead, A+ which is higher than A1. Awesome, no? Need to work harder and play less. Have you people ever thought that this new grading system is somehow unfair to us who are sitting for SPM this year? I personally think that way. The Ministry should start all this new system next year, don't you think? Well, at least those who are sitting for SPM next year can get themselves ready for A+. I can say that I'm not ready for A+ and it's kinda too late to regret and a little too late to get ready for it. I'm working for my A's, wish me luck! :D

Keys to HAPPINESS

There was one time, I was cleaning the house and I found a majalah budak-budak. It's the Celik magazine. I remember my sister bought this because she was too eager to know about the Earth Hour. So, I was flipping through the pages and I think it's a good magazine for kids as there were a lot of information and it covers all aspects of education. It has Islamic education, BM, English, Science and etc. Isn't that good? So, as I was flipping through the pages, I was amazed by one of the pages. It's written there:

KEYS TO HAPPINESS

• Watch a sunrise. Be thankful to God.
• Be the first to say "assalamualaikum of hello".
• Focus on what you WANT - and take steps towards it.
• Learn to show cheerfulness even you don't feel it.
• Treat everyone as you want to be treated.
• Remember that winners do what losers don't want to do.
• Never give up on anybody; miracles happen.
• Remember someone's name.
• Be tough-minded but tender hearted.
• Keep your promises.
• Do not wastes an opportunity to tell someone you love them, especially your family.
• Leave everything better than you found it.
• Keep some things to yourself and do not promote havoc by backstabbing people.

I was amazed by this. I mean, why is this 'thing' in a magazine for kids? They are innocent, they are not stressed by their lives. Right? Think about it.