My 1 month 22 days experience working at Starbucks

Yesterday was the last day of February and my last day working at Starbucks. Yeah, I've stopped. Not that I was fired or what, it's my wish to stop working. For the past 1 month and 22 days, I think I've learned a lot from the people there. My first few days of working were not so good. I felt reluctant to go to work for I don't know what reason. Maybe, I hate being the only 'kid' there. I had no one to talk to. I mean, I didn't have anyone to hold a not-related-to-work conversation. I wanted to quit but I tried to work for a few days more because I know trying to adapt to new environment isn't easy. So, I tried and I managed to get myself adapt to the whole new environment there. After that, I didn't feel reluctant to go to work but after a few days, a new thing came and it's called laziness. But, I have found ways to overcome it. Well done, Shazana. So, been working like I've got no life at all. I didn't have time for movies and that's very sad. But thank God, I can still managed to spend time with family and friends. Haha, cakap as if la aku ni kerja bagus sangat. Working with the people there is fun. Especially the closing partners. Tipu lah if tak pernah sakit hati kerja sana. But, I did somehow enjoy myself. I had times where I laughed my ass off. Even I'm just a casual labour but they treated me just as same as all other partners. And of course, there were times when I feel so pissed and fed up working there. But I know it's all part of working. I can't just want things to be like how I want it to be, I can't expect things to be the same all time. I'm growing up so I have to understand that things are not the same. And and, after working as just a casual labour they did give me something as the token of appreciation.

Two Bearusta Bears and a Starbucks mug with some good words written on it. I feel appreciated. And yeah, that's one of it. Learn to appreciate not just when we have lost that something or someone, we should just appreciate when we still having them. Show it. And of course, the rest are all the making drinks skill. I spilled hot boiling water on my own hand, I spilled hot boiling milk on my body, I cut my finger a few times, I dropped food on the ground, I made wrong drinks a few times too, I cursed people a lot, I learned how to mop the floor now that I'm very good at it (haha), I washed the dishes every day, minus all the mandi whipped cream experience and a lot more. Cheers!

Fake Awake

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The Rose Petals and It's Thorns

It's silly when someone starts to think about something that is rarely thought by others and suddenly it became an issue. Ever wondered why we only see people happy and rarely see them sad? Only certain people see the ugly side of things. No, they aren't pessimist. They're just being concern. Haha, big fat liar. Okay, let's begin. You see a very bright student scores in her studies and every school activities. Sorry, I'm being a sexist here. Proceed. She joins every competitions. She involves in all the school activities and yet, she managed to get straight A's in her examinations. The entire school knows her and she is loved and envied by everyone. From what we see, she must be very happy in achieving the Best Student Award. We want to be like her. Very successful. Her parents must love her so much. She probably can get everything that she wants. But what if she's not happy with her life? What if she is forced by her parents to get everything that her parents want and not her wish? Surely, she's not happy to do all that kan? But, she has to because she's being forced and because she can't decide what's the best for herself just because she's being tied to the best student in school whatever bullshit it is. Poor little girl.

We see a mother, a housewife who is very loving and caring. She takes a very good care of her family. She cooks everyday, she cleans the house, she has to do the laundries without complaining. She's very patient. She seems to be very happy doing all the chores. That is what we see. What if she feels very tired to do all that. Yeah, that's her responsibility but she needs breaks too. She needs her own time too. What if deep down inside, she feels sad to do the same thing every single day. She hopes her children can lend a helping hand but they don't. They let their mother do everything for them. And what if this lady wants a family vacation? She wants to spend time with her husband. What if her husband is too busy with work and that makes her feel that they're falling apart. Women have a very very very very very soft heart. What if actually she's not happy with her life but she has to pretend so because she loves her family. Poor mother.

We see a father works very hard for the family. But still, he has time to spend with his family. He works very very very hard because he wants nothing but the best for the family. He loves his family so much. He would do anything for the family. Even if he has to go out of the country, the first thing on his mind is his family. He knows that they're actually worry about him so he has to pretend that everything is fine although the truth is he has to attend meetings here and there. He has no time for meal. He has to pretend that his job is not torturing even deep inside, he wants to quit. But he can't because the love for his family. He can quit his job if he wants to but he wants to show to his children that there's no such thing as giving up. Problems can be solved. Nothing is easy but we have to keep on trying. Don't look back and don't give up. Poor father has to stand with all the hassles at the office just because he wants the best for the family.

I don't have any specific reasons why I'm posting this. The sun shines so brightly outside. Mom just went out with her friends. Adik-adik are at school. Abah is somewhere in Seberang Jaya. Mai is at her lab, Elina is at her shoes store, Keyla must be at home dealing with her PMS. I'm bored and cheers!

Abra Cadabra!

Eh, I remember you! We met once in Pavi kan?
Yes!

(OMG, he still remember me. Excited nya!)

-__-"

:)

I am not going to let myself to go into that bloody room. Na-ah, never!

THE something is behind THE nothing

A: Ey, go throw rubbish la
B: Come, let's go
A: Apa ni? Throw rubbish pun kena teman ka?
B: If you're not coming with me then how the hell am I going to throw THE rubbish?
A: Just throw yourself! Easy peasy.


The feminine part of me is surfacing. I'm a little bit more sensitive now. Bad thing?

I hope I'm right

I think
I've found
THAT someone :)

But, hell yeah it's too early isn't it?

Irreplaceable

Last night was another boring night. I got back from work and found out there were no one at home. Except, mak tok. I got myself cleaned, had dinner, watched TV and that's it. I'm not much of a TV person, so yeah couldn't stand watching TV for too long yaw! Weird much? Went up to my room, checked phone (as usual) there were 4 missed calls and 8 messages from the same person. And that got me mood swing. I was super annoyed and pissed off. Then, I called Fadd. It's been a while since the last time we talked on the phone.

Me: Haaaaa.............. (couldn't finished my haaaaaluuuuuu)
Fadd: Naaaaaaaaa! (screaming)
Me: What's your problem lah dey? Menjerit tak tentu hala.
Fadd: (laugh)
Me: How are you? I'm bored lah
Fadd: You think?
Both: Shiiiiiiiittttttttttt! (Be Without You was on air)
Fadd: Naa, I miss her (Maria).
Me: I miss him (the late Danial).
Fadd: Hey, are you okay?
Me: You know what, I think I'm getting weaker by days. I always feel I need someone to talk to, but there's no one. No one can replace him.
Fadd: Apa ni Naa? You have made it through over the past 2 years. And yeah, no one can replace him.
Me: Fadd, I rasa even if I dah married pun kan, there's still a piece of my heart with him in it.
Fadd: Not to sound gay, but I pun rasa macam tu. He was a good friend.
Me: Fadd, think I'm not in the mood sangat lah now. Nanti I call lain.

Danial, I'm sorry but I can't help myself. I miss you. I really really want to talk to you. There's a lot that I want to tell you. You've been such a wonderful friend to me. No, not just to me. But to all of our friends.

I went off to bed early last night with the hope that I could meet you in my dream :(

I hope he will read this

Please don't treat me like I'm your girlfriend. We're just friends and there's a limit to it. Stop thinking that I love you because I don't. Be thankful that I can still be your friend. Don't expect me to be the same girl that you've fooled once. Don't ask me why I'm not picking up your calls because obviously, I don't want to talk to you. Don't text me every single day, I hate to see your name appear on the screen of my phone. Please know the boundaries. Yes, I'm avoiding you and that's because, I'm scared if all my responses make you think that I'm giving you hope. I just want us to be friends and nothing more. Is it so hard to understand that I don't love you anymore. I've made it clear, I've said it to you. I've said it clearly. What else do you want from me. Stop showing that you care about me so much because it annoys me. Just stop doing everything you're doing now.

W380i

Flip open the phone, go to Contacts. Scroll down and stop at contact list #99. Spend few minutes staring at the phone screen. Then, flip close the phone back because it may not be the right time.

I'm boredddddddd -___-

Fuck, this is cute

The only time she knows is when she is asleep.

Girl: Babe I dont think I can sleep.
Boy: Why baby?
Girl: I don't know. I need your boring voice to put me to sleep. Wanna tell me a story? Hehehe.
Boy: Hahah, you're lucky that you're cute. How about I read you Dear John.
Girl: Sounds perfect. - Boy reads Dear John- - 15 minutes later-
Girl: *snores*
Boy: Babe?
Girl: *snores*
Boy: Hahah, you always knock out within 15 minutes. Your snores are cute. Babe, I really love you. I really do. Sometimes I might show that I dont give a f***. But I do. I never want to lose you. I know it's cheesy, but this is how I feel. This is REAL. I know I'm not the best thing out there, but I'm trying to be one of your best ever. Thank you babe, thank you for choosing a messed up guy like me to be your boyfriend. Thank you for being mine. I honestly can't see myself with anyone else but you babe. I know I say I love you too many times, but each time I say it, my feeling grows more & more for you. Thanks for listening babe. I'll still be on the phone if you need anything. Goodnight babe & sweet dreams. I won't let the bed bugs bite you.

cute cute cute cute :)

One Day

I miss the 'ketat' moment with Colin and Terence.