K I S M E T

yesterday, mama and abah went to school for the report card day. and just like how i expected it to be, abah marah. i woke a little bit late yesterday just to make sure i didn't get to talk to abah and mama before they went to school. i did all the houseworks before bath just to cover up dengan harapan, takkan kena marah sangat. and the best part is, i spent more than an hour in the bath room just to escape from abah. ding dong. and i skipped lunch and i locked myself in the room because i really don't want to talk to abah and mama. from my room, i called the house phone asking Irah whether abah marah gila or tak. i know its sillt to ask that. abah was really mad and Irah said abah said this to mama "i didn't expect this. i feel disappointed" you see, the only thing that will make me feel down and i mean really really down and the only thing that makes me feel that i'm useless is to disappoint my parents. i cried. well folks, i think it's better to stop telling you guys what happened yesterday because i'm starting to feel down just to think of what abah told me yesterday. abah and mama, i'm sorry. i will try to study harder but i can't promise you that i will get good results for the trials and even worse the spm itself. i don't know why but i just can't promise you two that and again, i'm sorry.