K I S M E T

stop pushing. i need time to think. you take things for granted and now you want to make a big deal of that person leaving you. you said it's the best thing you've never experienced but your mind said the opposite. you need time to fix yourself as well? you're selfish and you don't seem to know it. people are trying to give you their bests but you don't know how to appreciate them. when you're down, she always be there to cheer you up. but what did she get in return? you said you don't want to lose her but you were kissing with your own brother's girlfriend. i’m impressed, i’ve never met such a small mind inside such a big head before.


next chapter,
that night you texted me saying you need some explanation of what had happened between us. i gave you what you want. you started it off with your usual lines. it was stupid of me to give such a reaction. i should know it. the time flies so fast and you said, sometimes to look back is much better than to think of the future while you were holding her hand. i just smiled and she doesn't like it. i gave in. i tried to understand you. you need your mom and sister on your wedding day. a lunch will do. you asked me to choose but i need more options but when can i get it? can i ask it from you ex's mother? wait, does she even know what is happening. that morning, i wake up and to see you smiling next to me feels like heaven. a burger and a coke is a total go! finally, you met her. i can see that spark in your face. i told you, you love her still. but i know it's hard to choose. let's ask for more options. to fly to the moon or straight to heaven. we hate each other and we both know it. the endless fight is just so lovely. the endless love is frightening me.

it's okay baby, let's twist our words. our mind need some confusing game to earse those memories. it just work that way.

p/s: only fools understand what i wrote (: